Knowledge

I think I know too much…

Over the past couple of years I’ve read a lot of books on a lot of subjects – and I’ve learned quite a lot. Usually this is a good thing, I love having a vast knowledge and vocabulary. However last night, for the first time, I felt the sting that can accompany knowledge… It was something I learned about body language and how to read people. I learned for certain that one of girls I fancy has a boyfriend, and I identified who he was, without speaking to either of them.

It’s actually really easy to do – their body language softened around each other, voices smoothed, he got a bit of a look in his eye if somebody looked at her in the wrong way - this could all have been just that they were friends, but then I had the deal sealed, by her eyes. It’s a completely involuntary reaction, but when you see someone you have a physical attraction to, your pupils dilate. Luckily for me, not many people are aware of this action, and it’s quite hard to spot – but it was there… Thus, the burden of knowledge.

On the plus side however – it hasn’t deterred me from pursuing ladies far out of my league… I’m still, besotted with a girl I actually barely know – but I think I know enough. Well, actually – she’s one of these people I’m almost certain I could sit and talk with for hours and hours about anything… I was talking to one of my friends last night – and she asked me, “What are you looking for in a girl?” and my answer was “Someone I can talk to – and as long as she’s not a complete munter, I’m OK!”(someone who knows my ex’s might suggest this is a new rule :P) 

We’ll see how it pans out I guess – to be honest, on reflection the past 9 months have been pretty decent. I’ve had band offers again – I’ve not got much time for a girlfriend if I’m honest (although I could see my way to making some) – and I’ve not gone completely insane. So what, I’ve not been near a woman for 9 months… I’ve not been anything close to physical with anyone in that time, but I’m still here – as the Norwegian Proverb goes: Bak skyene er himmelen alltid blå – which means Behind the clouds the sky is always blue